Willy Dobbe This Blog should have been an instrumental, but the words got in the way. [Blog of Bert Boerland] 2014-04-08T20:19:07+00:00 Never trust data, no matter what the source is http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/never_trust_data_no_matter_what_the_source_is 2014-09-22T20:15:05+00:00 2014-09-22T20:19:17+00:00 bertboerland bert drupal english geeks/nerds Happy internet culture weird xss in the zoen boerland.com
Drupal is becoming increasingly a backend CMS. For editers so they can easy manage their content while for example AngularJSis delivering the content. Or as a backend hup combining content from multiple sources, databases and systems.

Drupal evolved towards this from a blog alike system 10 years ago, a content type with user generated comments below. Back then everybody knew that you should filter User Generated Content and stripe the HTML if you cared about the site. Many other systems up to today however do not filter UGC good enough; user signups, search input and many other ways a user can give input ot the system.

Now Drupal is talking to other systems, combining data from multiple sources, devs still need to understand that one should ***never*** trust input data, no matter if the source is another database or a user.

Because, what could possibly go wrong with just displaying this data directly or injecting it in the database? Why should you "checkplain" the TXT fields in zone of a domain? Why?

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Drupal is becoming increasingly a backend CMS. For editers so they can easy manage their content while for example AngularJSis delivering the content. Or as a backend hup combining content from multiple sources, databases and systems.

Drupal evolved towards this from a blog alike system 10 years ago, a content type with user generated comments below. Back then everybody knew that you should filter User Generated Content and stripe the HTML if you cared about the site. Many other systems up to today however do not filter UGC good enough; user signups, search input and many other ways a user can give input ot the system.

Now Drupal is talking to other systems, combining data from multiple sources, devs still need to understand that one should ***never*** trust input data, no matter if the source is another database or a user.

Because, what could possibly go wrong with just displaying this data directly or injecting it in the database? Why should you "checkplain" the TXT fields in zone of a domain? Why?

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Corporate Social Responsibility and using Open Source http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/corporate_social_responsibility_and_using_open_source 2014-09-22T11:53:27+00:00 2014-09-22T12:23:29+00:00 bertboerland drupal english environment Happy Social Software work A star in a network
It may differ per country and continent, but for most of the regions I know of, Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR) has become a standard within corporations as a way of buying, selling and producing goods and services. We all know that resources are scarce and hence should be used for the best possible use and more important, reused when possible.

By reusing resources to produce new goods or services, we make optimal use of that what is there. This is no longer a “left" or “green" political statement but is being executed by all parties in the political and economical arena, simply because it is in the interest of the person doing so as well as all other persons. It makes economical sense to reuse resources, be good for persons, the community and the environment. Even if it was just for the tragedy of the commons or from a prioner’s dilemma point of view. For those interested in how doing good or bad impacts the group, this academic PDF might be a good start. If you master Dutch this TED quality keynote during a DrupalJam conference of my friend Yoast on vimeo is truly something to watch.

Garden city of to-morrow

So it is my opinion that CSR has moved beyond empty platitudes and has become truly in the genes of people and companies. Many people think that CSR started as corporate philanthropy, a way of the rich to donate to the poor. I don't think this is true, in every revolution, there have been powers to do good for the environment, the people and the community. For example during the Industrial Revolution there was a very strong new socialism trend with taking care of the housing, commnities and villages of the workers, “The garden cities of to-morrow". Not because “the Rich" want to do good perse (“philanthropy"), but because it made sense economically; less death and diseases (less risk) and a richer and happier workforce (and new business models around this growth).

Urban gardening

Most of the definitions I have seen of CSR have in common that it is an integral vision towards sustainable business with social responsibility in business decisions to balance the social and economic impact of the decision. That by itself is an excellent definition and one that will be supported by anyone who is been doing business. The implementation most see however is to have a policy on carbon footprint in a company or to only buy agricultural products that are produced in a sustainable way, without pesticides. All fine.

But it seems that there is a very easy way to have implementation of CSR: by using a product that is produced to be be reused, made with the knowledge of thousands and with target audience of the world. The product that is not wasting a single second of the future and not wasting a drop of the paste. Indeed, I am talking about using open source software (OSS)!
OSS is by definition made with CSR in mind, it is being produced by different people all over the globe to be reused for you and your knowledge will be direct input for making the product better, iterate on the development and implementation.

And hence, a company that is using open source has a sustainable competitive advantage by using valuable rare resource in the most optima form. Therefor I dare any company that is using software to produce goods, to take using open source software into account and into its’ Corporate Social Responsibility policy. For by using open source software, we can truly make a better world by using more knowledge and less resources.

A very healthy situation for any company.

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PS: if you want more information on this vison, do visit the 12 Best Practices from Wunderkraut session at the DrupalCon Amsterdam. Or visit Wunderkraut at booth number 1 in the sponsor lounge, right by the coffee! We are part of the community that uses and make open source software. With passion.

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It may differ per country and continent, but for most of the regions I know of, Corporate Social Responsibility (CSR) has become a standard within corporations as a way of buying, selling and producing goods and services. We all know that resources are scarce and hence should be used for the best possible use and more important, reused when possible.

By reusing resources to produce new goods or services, we make optimal use of that what is there. This is no longer a “left" or “green" political statement but is being executed by all parties in the political and economical arena, simply because it is in the interest of the person doing so as well as all other persons. It makes economical sense to reuse resources, be good for persons, the community and the environment. Even if it was just for the tragedy of the commons or from a prioner’s dilemma point of view. For those interested in how doing good or bad impacts the group, this academic PDF might be a good start. If you master Dutch this TED quality keynote during a DrupalJam conference of my friend Yoast on vimeo is truly something to watch.

Garden city of to-morrow

So it is my opinion that CSR has moved beyond empty platitudes and has become truly in the genes of people and companies. Many people think that CSR started as corporate philanthropy, a way of the rich to donate to the poor. I don't think this is true, in every revolution, there have been powers to do good for the environment, the people and the community. For example during the Industrial Revolution there was a very strong new socialism trend with taking care of the housing, commnities and villages of the workers, “The garden cities of to-morrow". Not because “the Rich" want to do good perse (“philanthropy"), but because it made sense economically; less death and diseases (less risk) and a richer and happier workforce (and new business models around this growth).

Urban gardening

Most of the definitions I have seen of CSR have in common that it is an integral vision towards sustainable business with social responsibility in business decisions to balance the social and economic impact of the decision. That by itself is an excellent definition and one that will be supported by anyone who is been doing business. The implementation most see however is to have a policy on carbon footprint in a company or to only buy agricultural products that are produced in a sustainable way, without pesticides. All fine.

But it seems that there is a very easy way to have implementation of CSR: by using a product that is produced to be be reused, made with the knowledge of thousands and with target audience of the world. The product that is not wasting a single second of the future and not wasting a drop of the paste. Indeed, I am talking about using open source software (OSS)!
OSS is by definition made with CSR in mind, it is being produced by different people all over the globe to be reused for you and your knowledge will be direct input for making the product better, iterate on the development and implementation.

And hence, a company that is using open source has a sustainable competitive advantage by using valuable rare resource in the most optima form. Therefor I dare any company that is using software to produce goods, to take using open source software into account and into its’ Corporate Social Responsibility policy. For by using open source software, we can truly make a better world by using more knowledge and less resources.

A very healthy situation for any company.

Untitled

PS: if you want more information on this vison, do visit the 12 Best Practices from Wunderkraut session at the DrupalCon Amsterdam. Or visit Wunderkraut at booth number 1 in the sponsor lounge, right by the coffee! We are part of the community that uses and make open source software. With passion.

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Bert Boerland en de Icebucket Challenge http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/bert_boerland_en_de_icebucket_challenge 2014-08-31T16:43:03+00:00 2014-10-08T21:02:33+00:00 bertboerland bert film Happy humour internet culture nederlands

Hoe het voelt om als allerlaatste Nederlander genomineerd te worden voor de icebucketchallenge? Zie dat in deze video

Bodemllijn: Ik doneer aan Aaron Winbord (fund), een #drupal vriend die aan ALS lijdt. En ik nomineer Paus Franciscus, permier Mark Rutter en Koning Willem Alexander.

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Hoe het voelt om als allerlaatste Nederlander genomineerd te worden voor de icebucketchallenge? Zie dat in deze video

Bodemllijn: Ik doneer aan Aaron Winbord (fund), een #drupal vriend die aan ALS lijdt. En ik nomineer Paus Franciscus, permier Mark Rutter en Koning Willem Alexander.

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Vader en dochter, animatiefilm http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/vander_en_dochter_animatiefilm 2014-08-19T14:34:13+00:00 2014-08-19T14:47:19+00:00 bertboerland Brecht film nederlands

Vader en Dochter (Father and Daughter) is oorspronkelijk een animatiefilm van Michael Dudok de Wit uit 2000. De film kreeg een groot aantal prijzen, waaronder de Oscar voor beste animatiefilm in 2001. In 2007 kreeg deze film een plek in de canon van de Nederlandse film. De film heeft bijzondere geluidseffecten.

Als papa die al 10 jaar "op een mooie pinksterdag" neuriet als ik met dochter (en zoon lief) aan lopen ben, geweldig!

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Vader en Dochter (Father and Daughter) is oorspronkelijk een animatiefilm van Michael Dudok de Wit uit 2000. De film kreeg een groot aantal prijzen, waaronder de Oscar voor beste animatiefilm in 2001. In 2007 kreeg deze film een plek in de canon van de Nederlandse film. De film heeft bijzondere geluidseffecten.

Als papa die al 10 jaar "op een mooie pinksterdag" neuriet als ik met dochter (en zoon lief) aan lopen ben, geweldig!

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Kinect transcreens http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/kinect_transcreens 2014-08-16T19:14:41+00:00 2014-08-16T19:15:43+00:00 bertboerland english hardware microsoft I love the use of the kinect with this transcreen

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I love the use of the kinect with this transcreen

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Dueling Kinects http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/dueling_kinects 2014-08-13T20:33:21+00:00 2014-08-13T20:50:35+00:00 bertboerland english GNU hardware microsoft Two Kinects running at the same time. Each depthmap is compared and the closer value is kept. Allows for the creation of mutant hybrids, arms coming out of stomachs, etc.

Dueling Kinects from flight404 on Vimeo.

The open source tools making this, are available at Cinder Kinect and libcinder.

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Two Kinects running at the same time. Each depthmap is compared and the closer value is kept. Allows for the creation of mutant hybrids, arms coming out of stomachs, etc.

Dueling Kinects from flight404 on Vimeo.

The open source tools making this, are available at Cinder Kinect and libcinder.

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More Kinect Illusion (Max/MSP & Quartz Composer) http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/more_kinect_illusion_max_msp_quartz_composer 2014-08-13T20:21:34+00:00 2014-08-13T20:25:21+00:00 bertboerland english hardware hobby internet culture microsoft Dated but still cool. Using a Kinect in a very creative way:

More Kinect Illusion (Max/MSP & Quartz Composer)
Performer controls sound in Max/MSP & video in Quartz Composer using Kinect via OSC

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Dated but still cool. Using a Kinect in a very creative way:

More Kinect Illusion (Max/MSP & Quartz Composer)
Performer controls sound in Max/MSP & video in Quartz Composer using Kinect via OSC

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A nice Kinect dance video (with code!) http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/a_nice_kinect_dance_video_with_code 2014-08-04T12:00:59+00:00 2014-08-04T12:05:13+00:00 bertboerland english Happy hardware microsoft A rather nice video showing of the capabilities of code, dancers and the kinect:

CAN Kinect Physics Tutorial from Amnon Owed on Vimeo.

See the code at processing.org and creativeapplications.net.

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A rather nice video showing of the capabilities of code, dancers and the kinect:

CAN Kinect Physics Tutorial from Amnon Owed on Vimeo.

See the code at processing.org and creativeapplications.net.

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Humanoid Teleoperation - Kinect Hacks http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/humanoid_teleoperation_kinect_hacks 2014-08-04T10:54:11+00:00 2014-08-04T10:57:04+00:00 bertboerland english Happy hardware microsoft I dont think I want to be in an hospital with Humanoids yet. But the future is coming.

Take this robots being remote operated by a human via a kinect:

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I dont think I want to be in an hospital with Humanoids yet. But the future is coming.

Take this robots being remote operated by a human via a kinect:

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Augmented Reality Sandbox with Real-Time Water Flow Simulation http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/augmented_reality_sandbox_with_real_time_water_flow_simulation 2014-08-02T14:00:45+00:00 2014-08-02T14:13:49+00:00 bertboerland english Happy hardware microsoft Amazing Augmented Reality Sandbox which uses an Xbox Kinect, Linux Box, projector, and white sand.

See sanystation:
The SandyStation delivers whole new experience with sandbox and pushes creativity and fun behind the line. Digital projection and 3D vision makes possible to build beautiful and colorful landscapes looking like a living land. A number of games and applications give you a wide range of fun like building rivers, mountains or volcanoes spewing lava. And this is just the beginning…

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Amazing Augmented Reality Sandbox which uses an Xbox Kinect, Linux Box, projector, and white sand.

See sanystation:
The SandyStation delivers whole new experience with sandbox and pushes creativity and fun behind the line. Digital projection and 3D vision makes possible to build beautiful and colorful landscapes looking like a living land. A number of games and applications give you a wide range of fun like building rivers, mountains or volcanoes spewing lava. And this is just the beginning…

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Making Film and Art with the Xbox Kinect - An Exist Elsewhere Behind the Scenes Featurette http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/making_film_and_art_with_the_xbox_kinect_an_exist_elsewhere_behind_the_scenes_featurette 2014-08-02T10:12:57+00:00 2014-08-02T10:15:00+00:00 bertboerland english film geeks/nerds Happy hardware microsoft

See how we used the Xbox Kinect, projectors, and other technology to make the music video for Exist Elsewhere's song 'Tokyo.' Also, see how the Kinect and other technology is paving new ways in interactive art and film.

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See how we used the Xbox Kinect, projectors, and other technology to make the music video for Exist Elsewhere's song 'Tokyo.' Also, see how the Kinect and other technology is paving new ways in interactive art and film.

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Virtual Firewall with kinect and a projector http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/virtual_firewall_with_kinect_and_a_projector 2014-07-20T15:48:56+00:00 2014-07-20T16:19:01+00:00 bertboerland bert english Happy hardware

I am a big fan of all thing gesture (kinect) and augmented reality. So this "firewall" on aaron-sherwood's site is something I digg

The original concept stems from a performance piece I’m currently developing as Purring Tiger (with Kiori Kawai) titled Mizalu, which will premiere in June 2013. During one scene in the performance dancers will press into the spandex with the audience facing the opposite side. Mizalu is about death and experience of reality, so this membrane represents a plane that you can experience but never get through. As hard as you try to understand what’s in between life and death, you can never fully know.

And a bit more howto

The piece was made using Processing, Max/MSP, Arduino and a Kinect. The Kinect measures the average depth of the spandex from the frame it is mounted on. If the spandex is not being pressed into nothing happens. When someone presses into it the visuals react around where the person presses, and the music is triggered. An algorithm created with Max allows the music to speed up and slow down and get louder and softer, based on the depth. This provides a very expressive musical playing experience, even for people who have never played music before. A switch is built into the frame which toggles between two modes. The second mode is a little more aggressive than the first.

Need some nerd time!

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I am a big fan of all thing gesture (kinect) and augmented reality. So this "firewall" on aaron-sherwood's site is something I digg

The original concept stems from a performance piece I’m currently developing as Purring Tiger (with Kiori Kawai) titled Mizalu, which will premiere in June 2013. During one scene in the performance dancers will press into the spandex with the audience facing the opposite side. Mizalu is about death and experience of reality, so this membrane represents a plane that you can experience but never get through. As hard as you try to understand what’s in between life and death, you can never fully know.

And a bit more howto

The piece was made using Processing, Max/MSP, Arduino and a Kinect. The Kinect measures the average depth of the spandex from the frame it is mounted on. If the spandex is not being pressed into nothing happens. When someone presses into it the visuals react around where the person presses, and the music is triggered. An algorithm created with Max allows the music to speed up and slow down and get louder and softer, based on the depth. This provides a very expressive musical playing experience, even for people who have never played music before. A switch is built into the frame which toggles between two modes. The second mode is a little more aggressive than the first.

Need some nerd time!

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Zen and the Art of Drupal, The DrupalJam 2014. http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/zen_and_the_art_of_drupal_the_drupaljam_2014 2014-04-27T15:55:04+00:00 2014-05-07T18:49:03+00:00 bertboerland bert drupal english Happy internet culture politics netherlands
As a member of the Stichting Drupal Nederland I have been (co) organising our DrupalCamps called "DrupalJam" for some time now. Last year we hired a soccer stadium for the the DrupalJam and this year we are at a very relaxing location at the water: InnStyle

This year we are working hard to make sure we will have an even better conference than last year. So far, we are on track on making sure we will. :-)

The first keynote speaker is Ancillia Tilia, former fetish model now known in the Netherlands a advocate on digital rights. She has been active in BIts Of Freedom, the Dutch equivalent of the EFF and the "pirateparty" in Amsterdam. The second keynote is from Jan Willem Tulp who creates astonishing data visualisations. Take for example the work descibed on on this page and burn some CPU cycles while flying in WebGL over over Amsterdam.

The featured speakers include Jeroen Tjepkema on web performance, Vincent van Scherpenseel on UX, Iacobien Riezenbosh (State of the web) and Sander Spierenbug (Ethical hacker at KPN, the largest telco in the Netherlands). Apart from these there is a full program on the site and it includes a Question and Answer session via the internet with Dries Buytaert.

Always wanted to ask a question (even if you are not coming to the DrupalJam or are from the Netherlands?), but were afraid to ask? Now is your chance. Do send in your hair raising questions to Dries! If you are stuck in Drupal, we also have a gurubar where the best minds of the Dutch Drupal community will help you out on the spot.

We would like to thank the sponsors and if you are around in the Netherlands, be sure to buy your ticket for 29 euros (30 if you become a member of the Stichting Drupal Nederland). It includes coffee, tea, water, quality lunch, 20 plus sesions, a free e-book from O'Reilly, the option to win 1 out of 5 free PHP Storm licenses, first free drink in the bar and eternal peace. If you do, be sure to pick the pick a badge.

If you can't make it, you can follow the event at eventifier or @drupaljam


Last thing, friend Metin Seven made an artwork with Druplicon that we printed on a 1 meter high canvas. Attendees can bid on this artwork (new office? must have! :-) ) during the conference.

Organising these events is always a lot of work but with a great team it is neither "a lot" nor "work". Thanks team! Peace.

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As a member of the Stichting Drupal Nederland I have been (co) organising our DrupalCamps called "DrupalJam" for some time now. Last year we hired a soccer stadium for the the DrupalJam and this year we are at a very relaxing location at the water: InnStyle

This year we are working hard to make sure we will have an even better conference than last year. So far, we are on track on making sure we will. :-)

The first keynote speaker is Ancillia Tilia, former fetish model now known in the Netherlands a advocate on digital rights. She has been active in BIts Of Freedom, the Dutch equivalent of the EFF and the "pirateparty" in Amsterdam. The second keynote is from Jan Willem Tulp who creates astonishing data visualisations. Take for example the work descibed on on this page and burn some CPU cycles while flying in WebGL over over Amsterdam.

The featured speakers include Jeroen Tjepkema on web performance, Vincent van Scherpenseel on UX, Iacobien Riezenbosh (State of the web) and Sander Spierenbug (Ethical hacker at KPN, the largest telco in the Netherlands). Apart from these there is a full program on the site and it includes a Question and Answer session via the internet with Dries Buytaert.

Always wanted to ask a question (even if you are not coming to the DrupalJam or are from the Netherlands?), but were afraid to ask? Now is your chance. Do send in your hair raising questions to Dries! If you are stuck in Drupal, we also have a gurubar where the best minds of the Dutch Drupal community will help you out on the spot.

We would like to thank the sponsors and if you are around in the Netherlands, be sure to buy your ticket for 29 euros (30 if you become a member of the Stichting Drupal Nederland). It includes coffee, tea, water, quality lunch, 20 plus sesions, a free e-book from O'Reilly, the option to win 1 out of 5 free PHP Storm licenses, first free drink in the bar and eternal peace. If you do, be sure to pick the pick a badge.

If you can't make it, you can follow the event at eventifier or @drupaljam


Last thing, friend Metin Seven made an artwork with Druplicon that we printed on a 1 meter high canvas. Attendees can bid on this artwork (new office? must have! :-) ) during the conference.

Organising these events is always a lot of work but with a great team it is neither "a lot" nor "work". Thanks team! Peace.

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Leap userinterface with Flickr, Minority Report User Interface is here (well sort of :-) http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/leap_userinterface_with_flickr_minority_report_user_interface_is_here_well_sort_of 2014-02-28T17:31:07+00:00 2014-02-28T17:44:07+00:00 bertboerland Apple bert english film geeks/nerds Happy hardware I recently gave a presentation about Natural User Interface and dived again in my old (?) leapmotion.

It can do minority style user interface within a webapp:

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I recently gave a presentation about Natural User Interface and dived again in my old (?) leapmotion.

It can do minority style user interface within a webapp:

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RIP mama ( Anna Maria Catharina Christina Boerland Smit 1924 2014) http://willy.boerland.com/myblog/rip_mama_anna_maria_catharina_christina_boerland_smit_1924_2014 2014-02-22T20:19:11+00:00 2014-04-08T20:19:07+00:00 bertboerland bert nederlands Sad

Mijn afscheidstekst uitgesproken op de crematie dienst:

Woord van Dank zegging


Er staat nu „woord van dank zegging” in het programma. Ik zeg het nog een keer om het goed te laten bezinken: „woord van dank zegging”.
Een cabaratier zou er een grap over kunnen maken. Woord van dank zegging.
Een priester, pastoor of dominee zou er een een preek over kunnen houden. Het Woord van dank zegging.
En een zoon, een zoon zou een „woord van dank zegging” kunnen zeggen.


Zussen, Familie. Ik wil dank zeggen. Dank.


Maar meer dan „dank” wil ik zeggen waarom ik dank wil zeggen.


Het menselijk brein is raar. We herinneren ons veel, soms te veel.


We betrekken tijd in deze herinnering. Het recente verleden krijgt daardoor extra invloed, extra gewicht in onze herinneringen over handelingen, gedachten en mensen.


En daardoor zijn onze herinneringen gekleurd door de tijd. Als een polaroid vergeelt de tijd, het recente verleden minder dan de historiek.
De polaroid van mama in Italia voor de Fiat 500 staat minder scherp dat de recente foto's van haar in de rolstoel.


Een voetbal trainer is zo goed als zijn laatste wedstrijd, niet als zijn seizoen.
Een verkoper zo goed als zijn laatste contract. Niet als zijn carrière.
Maar mama wil ik niet alleen herinneren als hoe ze hier nu ligt.
Ik wil mama niet alleen herinneren als de oudere dame die haar laatste jaren in Boerhaave werd verzorgd.


Ik wil mama herinneren als mijn moeder.
Mijn moeder die kopjes thee bracht als ik met mijn vrienden op zolder tenten bouwde.
Mijn moeder die mij elke woensdag met me naar de bieb in het naburige Vries fietste zodat ik haar voorliefde voor literatuur mocht proeven.
Mijn moeder die me op padvinderij bracht zodat ik weet waar „hudo” voor staat.
Mijn moeder die me de kansen gaf te worden wie ik ben.
Mijn moeder die het beste in mijn naar boven haalde.


Daarvoor wil ik dank zeggen.
Mama, dank

Een dag die in mijn geheugen zal blijven...

Meer foto's van de crematie en de mooste begraafplaats/crematorium van Nederland op flick.

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Mijn afscheidstekst uitgesproken op de crematie dienst:

Woord van Dank zegging


Er staat nu „woord van dank zegging” in het programma. Ik zeg het nog een keer om het goed te laten bezinken: „woord van dank zegging”.
Een cabaratier zou er een grap over kunnen maken. Woord van dank zegging.
Een priester, pastoor of dominee zou er een een preek over kunnen houden. Het Woord van dank zegging.
En een zoon, een zoon zou een „woord van dank zegging” kunnen zeggen.


Zussen, Familie. Ik wil dank zeggen. Dank.


Maar meer dan „dank” wil ik zeggen waarom ik dank wil zeggen.


Het menselijk brein is raar. We herinneren ons veel, soms te veel.


We betrekken tijd in deze herinnering. Het recente verleden krijgt daardoor extra invloed, extra gewicht in onze herinneringen over handelingen, gedachten en mensen.


En daardoor zijn onze herinneringen gekleurd door de tijd. Als een polaroid vergeelt de tijd, het recente verleden minder dan de historiek.
De polaroid van mama in Italia voor de Fiat 500 staat minder scherp dat de recente foto's van haar in de rolstoel.


Een voetbal trainer is zo goed als zijn laatste wedstrijd, niet als zijn seizoen.
Een verkoper zo goed als zijn laatste contract. Niet als zijn carrière.
Maar mama wil ik niet alleen herinneren als hoe ze hier nu ligt.
Ik wil mama niet alleen herinneren als de oudere dame die haar laatste jaren in Boerhaave werd verzorgd.


Ik wil mama herinneren als mijn moeder.
Mijn moeder die kopjes thee bracht als ik met mijn vrienden op zolder tenten bouwde.
Mijn moeder die mij elke woensdag met me naar de bieb in het naburige Vries fietste zodat ik haar voorliefde voor literatuur mocht proeven.
Mijn moeder die me op padvinderij bracht zodat ik weet waar „hudo” voor staat.
Mijn moeder die me de kansen gaf te worden wie ik ben.
Mijn moeder die het beste in mijn naar boven haalde.


Daarvoor wil ik dank zeggen.
Mama, dank

Een dag die in mijn geheugen zal blijven...

Meer foto's van de crematie en de mooste begraafplaats/crematorium van Nederland op flick.

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